Learning to Trust

I wrote this while back and haven't posted it but, as I reread it I realized this story needed to be shared for God to get the glory! 

As I look around my house every day (for the last few weeks) I feel like "how in the world are we going to make it in time??" We have two weeks to pack our boxes, suitcases and sell all that we own. On top of that we have just been sick for ten days, so everything was on pause. But even in what seems to be chaos I can't explain how but I have absolute peace, it's incredible!! I feel like I should naturally be panicking, stressing and rushing to get things done but I'm not. In the middle of it all I hear the still small voice telling me that we will make it and it's ok to have peace and fun in the process. 

Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
It is well with me

Far be it from me to not believe
Even when my eyes can't see

And this mountain that's in front of me
Will be thrown into the midst of the sea

Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well
So let go my soul and trust in Him
The waves and wind still know His name

They sang that song at church on Sunday and I was reminded of God's provision for us. Ever since I could remember I have never felt worry about how we are going to make it. Growing up as a kid parents took care of everything. After my husband and I got married we headed off to bible school, the Lord provided all the we needed. We had miracle after miracle of him providing food every week and people blessing us with everything for our little apartment. When I got pregnant he supplied all our baby needs. We only had one income that couldn't even begin to cover all our expenses. But through it all the Lord has always been so faithful.

Moving to Hawaii we lived with family for a while until Kyle got work and we found housing. When I got pregnant with the twins and we needed a bigger place, he miraculously provided our next home for us! During that process I looked franticly for a place, made so many phone calls and did everything I could to find something, in order to move and be settled before the twins were born. I got absolutely no where. I clearly remember after my last attempt, I felt so hopeless. I prayed and told the Lord that he knows our situation, he alone knows whats next for us, and that I give up and I'm done trying to figure it out. Guess what he told me?? He said to be patient... he doesn't work on our time but he does work on our hearts. He said he doesn't rush but he's never late either. So in that moment I surrendered my agenda to him and what do you know a little while later we were moving into a bigger house that was perfect for our family! I can't say that I found it or did anything to attain it because that would't be true, it was God who provided it for us and it's been a blessing to us the whole time that we lived here in Hawaii. 

That sense of not having to worry and being absolutely content was starting to lift when we decided to move from Hawaii. We set the date and bought tickets to South Carolina but still didn't know where we would be living there. I tried to talk my husband out of it many times until I realized that I'm going against what God is leading him to do. The Lord reminded me of how he provided all these years for us and that he isn't going to stop just because we move. I was talking to my dad on the phone and mentioned to him that this all feels like I'm growing up and need to move out to get a place on my own in a sense. My mother overheard and said "no, keep the peace, Jesus told us to be like children and that means, let God take care of everything."

The next day was Fathers Day at church, pastor preached on the traits of God, the first one was that God is our provider, he said that the Lord wants to provide for us and doesn't want us to worry. He even asked everyone to remember being a kid and not ever having to think about bills, food, etc... Pastor confirmed what my mom said and I didn't need anyone else to tell me that the Lord was going to provide a home for us there. I got very excited and began to just wait patiently. I put that in the back of my mind and just prayed about it every day and spoke the word of God over our situation and found peace in it daily. Last week we came to find out that one of my aunts is moving out of her house in South Carolina and is allowing us to stay in that home!!! I'm so blown away by how much our Father loves us. My biggest concern was timing, I felt like we needed to stay here longer to save more and plan ahead better and so on. But when the Lord is in control we don't have to worry about these things because he takes care of us. That right there confirmed the Lords timing about this move for me. 

I want you all to be encouraged that no matter what you are going through, the Lord knows it all. Give everything into his hands, trust him and he will never fail you. Things might not turn out the way you plan them out but through the process he will be right beside you. And there is no place I'd rather be then in his presence.

I pray that the God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. -Romans 15:13

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. -Proverbs 3:5-6

Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7