I’m usually pretty positive about life and all that goes on in my daily routine. I do have hard days and even weeks just like everyone else. Sometimes it’s easier to hide out and just wait for all to be fine again, instead of opening up and being honest. Last week when I hit what felt like rock bottom, I actually fell right into my dearest Heavenly Fathers arms. The strength, love and rest I experienced is totally worth sharing about.
In the month of August I battle a headache that lasted pretty much all month. And the last few weeks I couldn’t seem to find the energy that I expected to have. My mind was all go go go but my body kept shutting down. During that time I prayed and it felt like my prayers weren’t going anywhere. I had question after question for the Lord and all the while I heard nothing. I received news from from someone close to us that weighed so heavy on me, it took me days to recover. It’s unusual for me, I found myself doing this and that to try and get attention from the Lord and nothing was working. One day I finally felt a breath of fresh air, but when evening came something happened and I felt like the wind was knocked out of me.
At first I put on my big girl shoes so to speak and told myself that I’d be fine, I prayed and gave it to the Lord and decided to get a much needed nights rest. But at that same moment a dear friend responded to a message from earlier that day and it lead to a conversation in which I ended up sharing how I felt. Opening up to her lead me to “feel” and I accepted it. I sobbed and completely gave in under all that weight I’ve been carrying. It took only a few minutes before I went straight to my Bible and opened up all the bookmarks that I’ve made over the years. Through his word the Lord reminded me of all the promises he has for me and I went almost instantaneous from weeping to being filled with immense joy.
It’s like I could finally see clearly and sense that all I was trying to accomplish by myself was getting me nowhere because my focus was on the current situations, instead of the one who holds my world together. I immediately knew what I had to do and that everything will be ok. That in my troubles I will grow and he will make something beautiful out of my life. Faith returned and peace filled my heart. My friend with whom I shared how I was feeling, told me all the same things that the Lord did. The next day at church the message was also a confirmation, with guidance on what I need to do in the season I am in. Oh how I love my Daddy!
Through all of this I realized that it’s so important to keep doing what you were called to do. You might question why and even have a million reasons to quit but you never know when your answer is right there in front of you. I was reminded to persevere and stay the course of my faith. To anchor myself in the word of God and worship him no matter what. He will come through, always, if we don't give up.
Persue him and not just what you need or want from him. Sometimes our troubles get so big and our prayer needs for ourselves and those around us seem to block him, but put all that aside and seek his face. He knows what you need before you even ask so don’t worry about any of it, just long for him and your answers will come. Many times in tangible ways and many times in encouragement and reassurance. A sense that everything is ok and that he’s holding you in his arms and you are right where you need to be.
I want to share some of the scriptures that I’ve received and also my go to’s.
If you don't already do this then I totally encourage you to start, always highlight or bookmark or write down any verses you get encouragement from. Memorize them and go there each and every time you feel down. His word is alive and powerful and constantly at work, rely on it to get you through every trial in life. "For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable." -Hebrews 4:12
I think it’s also important to do what I’m doing now and JOURNAL it’s like you’re writing your own personal story of all the ups and downs of life. The victories and the things that helped you along the way. It's encouraging to go back and read through them. I also share my experiences with my children to teach them and walk with them through this life one step at a time, just like the Lord is doing with me.
So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. You love him even though you have never seen him. Though you do not see him now, you trust him; and you rejoice with a glorious, inexpressible joy. The reward for trusting him will be the salvation of your souls. -1 Peter 1:6-9
The LORD is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving. The LORD gives his people strength. He is a safe fortress for his anointed king. -Psalm 28:7-8
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the LORD always, for the LORD GOD is the eternal Rock. Isaiah 26:3-4
Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing. -James 1:2-4
Those are just a few of the things the Lord spoke to me, I hope they will be encouraging to you like they were to me. And one more promise I want to leave with you is from Jeremiah 29:11-13
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
Blessings dear ones, I'm always praying for you.