Whenever I'm in the mood to write the kids are usually awake and very needy. By the time I'm done with them and it's nice and quiet in the house I'm all out of energy and have no desire to think. But today I am writing with kids crawling all over me and Star Wars ships crashing on every side of me! My background "music" is the sound effects of my little ones playing with action figures and I'm actually enjoying it. :)
I haven't been writing much because I feel like I don't have anything interesting to share with you guys. So I've decided to just share life with you as it is. I'll start with a little glimpse into our week so far, so here it goes..
Since it got cold here we have all been sick one after another, by the time the last one would be over it the first one would get sick all over again... Its been this way for a month now if not more. But this week Kyle and I got sick pretty bad and we were trying to stay away from the kids as much as we could. For a few days I've been living inside the room and getting to hear my kiddos interacting on their own without us hovering over them. It's been very interesting actually to hear how they do life together, help each other or how the older two try disciplining the younger two.
Today my 5 year old Alistair got pretty fed up with a messy house and kitchen and decided to help out. I was such a proud mama to see him unloading the dish washer and crawling on the counter trying to put the clean dishes away. As he was cleaning he was asking the other kids what they would like for dinner!? He later came and said to me "mom I know you guys aren't feeling good so I just did the dishes so you don't have to worry about that" aww hearing that just melted my heart.
Having to stay away from them for a few days made me realize how much I truly love them. My sweet mother came in the mornings and took them out for a few hours to give us a chance to rest. I am so so so so so thankful for my dearest mother, words can't even express. (Thank you mamchka for everything, you are truly the best gift ever!) Not being able to give my kiddos a hug or kisses when they get hurt or to even squeeze them to thank them for thinking of us is so hard for me. But I'm not letting these few days go to waste I'm looking back a seeing what I can learn from what I've observed.
The first thing that I noticed is that my kids also miss my hugs and physical touch, a few of my kiddos really felt the distance and that I'm not being affectionate with them and it really bothered them. They each acted out in their own way to show me that. Through this experience I realized that we all need love on a daily basis especially our littlest ones that don't seem to understand why we are locking them out of the room or just watching them pull themselves up and get through things on their own. Little or big or even us adults we all need love and affection on a daily basis to stay happy and healthy.
I also realized that I really don't, want all that "alone time" I always long for. Sometimes I know it's much needed and even good for me but now I know that my kids are SOO much better then being alone without them. Not being able to hold them and be close to them made me think how lonely life would be without them! I'm so grateful that we can make our plans but the Lord determines our steps. -Proverbs 16:9Kyle and I didn't plan too have four kids in four years but it happened and I don't regret it AT ALL.
The last thing that I noticed and I'm almost too ashamed to share is that I heard a lot of myself through my kids. Some good things but some I'm not so proud of.. I won't be listing off my shameful habits to you all on here lol but the thing I'm walking away with is that they learn far more from observing then they probably do us teaching them. They tend to talk like us, say things we say even make sighs the same way we do! Wow I really need to pay more attention to my words and body language. Well with that being said I think I've pretty much covered everything I've learned this week so far. I hope you weren't bored of my "notes to self" :) I would love to hear your feed back. Am I the only parent who sees a bit more of my 'not so good side' in my kids then I'd like to??
And now as I sit here finishing this post with my kiddos in bed and their soft music playing in the room. The tree light are lit in front of me and I am reminded again of the season that we are all celebrating. The birth of our Savior. As a mother I can't even begin to comprehend how God our Heavenly Father could send his only son to earth to first of all live here for 33 years and then have to die such a horrific death, all just for us. I can't understand it but I can thank him and I would like to encourage you all to not let this season just fly by without stopping and truly thanking him for what he has done and continues to do. Lets make it a point to let our kids see us praying, worshiping and living out our love for Christ because more then we preach it they will catch it by seeing us live it out.
Good night. Love and blessings to you my friends! And have a Merry Merry Christmas!!!